Life after college has been humbling…
I mean I’ve asked God to humble me many times so I guess this is my answer…
I had this expectation that after graduation I would get a job very fast, I would have money to do whatever I want and that I would just be a young saved NYC girl doing her thing. Loll
Well life hasn’t really gone the way I thought it would go and it has been frustrating.
There are many days where I just ask God so many questions and there are other days where I just don’t know what to say or how to feel.
I’ve wondered if God is tired of me asking him for the same things? If I’m suppose to stop asking him for a job everyday because he already knows what I need? Or if I’m supposed to continue praying and be like the persistent widow in Luke 18?
“Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up. 2 He said: “In a certain town there was a judge who neither feared God nor cared what people thought. 3 And there was a widow in that town who kept coming to him with the plea, ‘Grant me justice against my adversary .For some time he refused. But finally he said to himself, ‘Even though I don’t fear God or care what people think, 5 yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will see that she gets justice, so that she won’t eventually come and attack me!’”6 And the Lord said, “Listen to what the unjust judge says. 7 And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? 8 I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?” Luke 18:1-6
& I know Paul in Philippians 4:12 encourages us to be content in any situation. But I’m like God I don’t know how to be content while being unemployed and needing money for stuff? What does that really look like? Loll.
I constantly feel like a little girl who sits on her daddy’s lap and just goes on and on with questions…
Well, there’s a song by Elevation worship called “Your Promises”. And the lyrics are so comforting for my situation.
It says, ”It doesn’t matter what I see, it doesn’t matter what I feel, my hope will always be your promises to Me.” and then later on in the song it says, “ You will always be more than enough for me”.
I find that song just so comforting because it reminds me that God is the alpha and omega. He is the beginning and the end and he truly has the final say over my life, not my feelings or what I can currently see.
Even with no job, no grad school acceptance and not knowing what the future holds he is more than enough for me.
He is a sovereign God who sits above and is aware of everything that is going on in our lives. He doesn’t change his ways and he doesn’t change his mind about what he has spoken over the lives of his children. His word is true and his word is still relevant in our lives even in this crazy world!
So no matter how I feel or the questions I have my hope should be in his promises to me.
My situation and your situation will not be like this forever, but in these moments of questioning we should only use it to grow closer to God and grow in our faith and not just grow apart from God / grow in disbelief.
Because truthfully if we step away from God where do we have to go? Who will we turn to? Where would our hope be in? Definitely not in ourselves or abilities..
Woo, well just want to leave you with this , Don’t give up on God because he won’t give up on you. Stay strong and stay in his presence , he’s going to come through for you and for me :-).
And here are some of my favorite songs right now that always help me in my moments of weakness, questioning and heartache.
Love,
Giselle Parris
The Apple of God’s Eye.. 